“Will I succeed? Is it in the cards?”
I can’t decide what is more interesting, the Tarot itself or how people react to them. Some people do not want to make the smallest decisions without consulting the cards. Others think they are the work of the Devil.
Speaking of the Devil, the Tarot card by that name, my interpretation of that card is possibly different than others. To me, the Devil is about the encumbrances of life in a physical world. As powerful as the metaphysical may be, real life does have a way of being much harder to change than we like. Some problems can and do disappear overnight, but others are quite sticky. When the Devil appears, the counsel is to allow things to unravel gradually, to give it time. We can experience ease by understanding that the river can and will evolve, but that we need to allow it to. Pushing the river will just cause us pain and frustration. By accepting our humanness, we can better achieve results.
So…in these terms, the Tarot is the work of the Devil—ha ha! They are a physical tool, and one that we have to learn how to use. We must allow them to work for us.
This means that they have their proper place and use. They are symbolic and as such, they don’t always spell it out for us. Some readings are written as if in English, but others can be like old French, requiring one to dip deeply into their intuitive.
The best information, in my opinion, comes from the intuitive…but we have to start somewhere. So understanding—intellectually—is a good place to begin. The Devil, in my terms, means encumbrance, but what’s the specific message? That can take context; that can take discussion; that can take diving into a pool of detail and delving into the subtleties of the subconscious.
People wonder what’s in the cards for them. They also want to know what’s written in the stars.
It is funny how these phrases—at least to me—refer to Tarot and Astrology, but are often used by people who do not believe in Tarot and Astrology.
These days, many of you reading my blog come for the Astrology. It seems to me that people are more interested and intrigued in Astrology than Tarot these days. Maybe it’s because of technology. Tarot is so Nineteenth Century—ha ha. I mean…cards? We don’t even play card games with cards any more?!?
But we are exploring the Universe more now than ever. We are finding planets everywhere we look…even in our own Solar System. [Well, maybe not planets, per se…] True modern Astrologers use all sorts of objects in their readings now…far beyond what I can even touch at this point.
But let’s say that a few of you, who have been studying Astrology for some time now, are curious about the use of cards. Let’s say you have a secret wish to know the Tarot, but don’t want to learn a whole new system. And let’s say that…at times…you wish you could simply shuffle, throw down a few cards, and then get some quick information without having to draw up a chart and research and investigate it. Well, I have a solution just for you!
In the past few months, I have come to know about the Holistic Astrological Cards created by Karni Zor and Illustrated by Maya Toby. Interestingly, before I ever knew of them, I fantasized about them. I imagined what it would be like to do a card Reading with Astrology symbols. I then heard of the Holistic Astrological Cards, but only got to try them out months later (and after forgetting all about them).
This is how it went down. I was hanging out with a new-ish friend, when an issue came up. It involved three of us actually.
In passing, I said, “I wish I had my cards with me. I would do a reading to get a better understanding of what’s going on.”
My friend replied with, “I have something I think you’ll be able to use.” He wandered into the other room, and then returned with Karni’s deck in hand.
My eyes lit up! I was very excited to break into them. I was more interested in the experience than the information sought. And the results were amazing! Astrology is just as archetypal as Tarot.
The synchronicities and coincidences abounded! For example, I pulled the Mercury card alongside the Neptune card…and in the sky, the planets just so happened to be conjunct at that time.
But this was the most amazing part…and it took a while before I saw it. In the reading, I pulled the Mars card with the 3rd house card. In the sky, Mars was (and still is) in Libra. But the 3rd house is going to be different for each individual. So I simply read it symbolically and didn’t consider the actually Astrology happening in the sky.
But then I got it! In this one case, Mars was transiting the 3rd house for all three of us!!! You see, two of us have Leo on the Ascendant, and the third has sun in Leo. That means one way or the other, all three of us have Libra, and thus transiting Mars, in the 3rd house.
After seeing that, I figured out the whole situation at a much deeper level. It was multi-layered and multi-dimensional.
After that amazing reading, I purchased my own deck (via: http://www.astrologicalcards.com/). I have only just recently had the opportunity to use them professionally.
In a most recent example, I examined a set of client charts. I was reading for multiple people, so the amount of data I was perusing was vast. I decided to use the cards to focus my study. Actually and more accurately, I used to the cards to validate the focus I had already deemed.
In the card reading, Jupiter showed up with Cancer…and…as you know…Jupiter is currently transiting Cancer. In fact, at that time it had just stationed direct in Cancer!
The cards also highlighted Libra as the Ascendant. One person I was reading for was a Libra, and the other a Libra Rising! So Libra on the Ascendant worked for both!
Yesterday’s post…as you may recall…mentioned transiting Jupiter in Cancer in the 10th house, the result of putting all of these pieces together (and then interpreting them).
If you are an Astrologer, amateur or professional, and have an interest in using cards for one reason or the other, I whole heartedly recommend Karni’s deck. Here’s the link again; go check them out:
Karni also has a Facebook page for the deck:
For the record, I have no intention of giving up use of my Tarot decks or star charts. Karni’s cards simply fit it nicely as another beautiful tool for my belt!
My parents live in New England and they often say, “If you don’t like the weather, wait a minute.” Texas winters are very much like that too. Yesterday, the low was 26. Today, the high is supposed to be 79.
I equate Astrology to the weather and if you don’t like the way things have been going for you, wait a minute. Between now and Sunday at 10:30 am CST, three planets will change direction; we’ll begin a new lunar month; and the calendar will flip as well. That’s a lot of change in a short time.
And it’s not as if things have been stagnant of late either. I can’t say I see rapid and sweeping changes for everyone around me, but I do see movement in places that were seemingly stuck for a while. Even in my life, things are shifting and changing in ways I could not have foreseen weeks ago.
When Mercury Retrograde began, I predicted that the greater angst would occur when Mercury was in Pisces. Well, I was sort of right and sort of wrong. For me personally, Mercury Retro in Pisces felt awful. It was depressing, frustrating, and bleak. Mercury Retro in Aquarius has been active and…I have to admit…humorous. The miscommunications alone are worth a good laugh! Surely you’ve heard of some major blunders out there and I’ve had some of my own. And I can’t tell you how many times a pone call I had been waiting for all morning came right when I was in the shower. My Internet went down, and emails failed to go through or showed up two or three times when sent only once.
Looking back, this all makes sense. We probably should have guessed that Mercury Retro would be especially impish in Aquarius. I have observed for a while that Aquarian types have a unique sense of humor (and I am not just talking about those with sun in Aquarius). If you’re ruled by Uranus, the planet that sits on its side relative to all the rest, then you are one who does not follow someone else’s rules.
And, I do say, we need more of that around here. Rules are fear based…and they are getting a little out of control. Notice we only like rules when they are applied to someone else.
In less than 20 minutes from typing this line, Mercury will station direct. At 10:24 am CST tomorrow, Mars will station retrograde…beginning his journey toward the Grand Cross. Then, almost exactly 24 hours after that, Saturn will also station retrograde (10:20 am CST Sunday). Mars will go direct in May, but Saturn will not do so until July.
Even though all of these Astrological changes are still pending, I think they have already mixed things up quite a bit. In the past 24 hours, many things shifted and changed and turned out differently than I expected. Things that seemed doomed to be lose-lose-lose, worked themselves out.
After keen observation, I think we are in the midst of two overlapping themes:
- Things are moving in ways that cannot be predicted;
- The drive, intent, or purpose is to help us break out of old patterns.
The unexpected forces us out of the dreamy, drowsy reality we sometimes find ourselves in. How often do you arrive at a Friday evening only vaguely remembering the entire week before? Nothing stands out, because the week flowed by just like any other. You got up at the expected times. Your workday dragged on or flew by…just like expected. You had brief moments of ease and scattered moments of joy, but no more than the week before.
Then bam! Curve ball after curve ball can throw you completely off course. Then you have to pay attention…you have to think. You panic because you’re totally out of your comfort zone.
The panic reveals to you the old, old patterns. But you are not that old, old person…well you are older (ha ha), but you are wiser! You have learned a lot since those old days, and now the Universe is simply giving you opportunities to apply that new knowledge.
Many people thought that 12/21/2012 would bring in the Golden Age or at least a whole new one. But think about this:
Imagine you are someone who lived your whole life on a small Pacific Island completely isolated and unaware of the rest of the world—no Internet, no electricity. Nearly every person on the island is someone you know…or at least know of.
Then, one day, you get teleported to the middle of Paris, France. The croissants are the best things you’ve ever smelled or placed on your tongue. The buildings, the river, the music, the people are all beautiful in ways you have not seen before.
But come on…would you stand there in awe and wonder? Or would you be frightened beyond anything you’d experienced before?
Life is indeed changing. I think it has already changed tremendously. But until we learn the new languages, and acclimate to the new processes, we are going to be scared.
So practice what you’ve learned. Try one thing and then the next. I’m sure something is going to work. And then watch. You’ll see things shift…right before your eyes. You’ll feel panic, and then watch it relax. You’ll feel anger, and then watch it dissipate. You’ll think you’re totally doomed, and then watch it fall into place.
And you’ll look back and agree that it is different than it used to be. No, the gold is still not exactly apparent. The dreams are not falling into our laps as we may have hoped. But there is evidence out there. It may take a bit of effort to see it, but if you look at your life objectively, you will find it. You will find those things that have become easier than they used to be. You will find the support.
Life might flow very differently in March than it did in February. And April can be quite different from that. Keep practicing your practice, and keep looking for evidence of progress and ease.
The (Zodiac) month of idealized love is over, and now we are within an expression of love that is very much human.
In Alignment and Synchronization, I wrote how Aquarius—the water bearer—is the ruler of the 11th house—the house of ideals and aspirations. By this association, it is perfectly appropriate for Valentine’s Day, the celebration of idealized (romantic) love, to fall in the middle of Aquarius.
Aquarius is over and we are now within the sign of Pisces, a sign of brotherly love, a sign of compassion, a sign of empathy, and a sign that, in my opinion, has a great ability to feel pain because it has a great ability to feel.
The point is this: one capable of feeling strong love is, by those same means, capable of feeling strong pain. And this is why we write so many songs about how “love hurts”.
But what is the lesson? Where have we gone wrong? We are here to be expressions of love, and yet so many of us (all of us?) are wounded—or have been.
Most of you know that I call myself an Intuitive Guide. As such, I am an intuitive Astrologer. That means I teach what I am learning. Like Moses, I am walking along side the people I guide, helping all of us find our way out of the desert.
Given my birth time, the boundary of Aquarius and Pisces lies in the middle of my relationship house. The butting up (and thus contrast) between idealized Aquarian romantic love and the oft-painful empathic Piscean love is a big part of what I am here to learn. And these days, this part of the sky is being pummeled.
Let’s consider current transits:
- The sun is at 5 degrees Pisces and in a separating conjunction with Neptune.
- In one week, the sun will conjunct Chiron.
- The sun is also separating from a trine with Mars, which is nearing the end of Libra and days away from stationing retrograde.
- Mercury is retrograde in Aquarius for another few days.
Chiron can be thought of as our Achilles Heal (ha ha—pun intended). It is simultaneously a vulnerable spot and a wound we are here (in this lifetime) to work on…and hopefully heal.
My interpretation of some of this current Astrology is this:
- We are experiencing (sun) Piscean love, while our mind (Mercury) is still reaching back toward idealized romantic thoughts and beliefs about love.
- We are between a rock (the illusions of Neptune) and a hard place (our Chiron wounds).
- And our actions and passions (Mars) are active in our relationships (Libra), but are about to take a 180 (station retrograde) forcing us to go back over what we’ve been doing so we can learn to do better.
For me personally, the sun and Neptune are transiting my relationship house. Mercury is there too and is reaching back toward my descendent, but will not cross it before turning forward. I am experiencing first hand (through my persona transits) what the current Astrology is telling all of us.
So what is it saying? The phrase I got, is this:
Bleeding hearts bleed and grow weak, but pumping hearts beat on and on.
The Aorta is the largest artery in the human body. All of the oxygenated blood, which feeds every cell of your body, passes through it. Because the aorta is so conspicuous, it is easy to believe that it is the most important. It exemplifies the heart’s service to the rest of the body. Through it life-supporting blood is delivered to every cell.
However, we cannot and must not forget the importance of the coronary arteries, for without these, the heart starves. The coronary arteries are the symbols of self-love!
A bleeding heart is a martyr and a martyr is someone who gives their life in service to others. Jesus is often viewed and the ultimate martyr. But the problem with martyrdom is that it ends the service. If you give away your life to help someone, then that is the last person you will help.
In our idealized view of marriage, we say: “‘til death do us part.” Is this not the same as martyrdom? Is this not a vow committing ourselves to death and pain if need be? There is no clause that says: “I am committed to you as long as you don’t hurt me.” And how many people have died by the hands of their spouses?
Idealized romantic love has its other side. It has to! What I mean is this: until we learn about, experience, and express true love, we will entangle ourselves within these idealized and painful experiences.
- We want love (and thus our spouse) to be our savior, but this is not what love is.
- We want love (and thus our spouse) to be our fountain…our source of all nourishment, but that is not what love is.
- We want love (and thus our spouse) to be our protector, but that is not what love is.
- And some of us try very hard to be all of the above: savior, source, and protector.
God/Goddess/All-That-Is loves us, but does not keep us from pain. He/She/It does not save us from death. And He/She/It will, at times, allow us to experience great lack…if that is what we most need to evolve into a better view (and thus experience) of life.
Pisces follows Aquarius. Our experience follows our thoughts.
As I read what I wrote above, I now see that true love is our savior, is our fountain, and is our protector! God can keep up from pain, but we have to connect to our own piece of God to do this. And death and lack are only illusions.
So the issue is not the idea and ideal of romantic love, but our interpretations of what that means!
All healers, spouses, lovers, and parents must learn that self-sacrifice does not work best. If you kill yourself trying to heal someone, then you die. If you hurt yourself trying to love someone, then you will be in pain.
I had a dream a couple of weeks ago where I curled my body around my cat to protect her from a lion. I quickly realized in the dream that this would cause great harm to my body. I had to trust that she could out run the lion. I thus set her free and told her to run and sought protection for myself.
It is only now that I fully understand what this dream was telling me—foretelling me, as it preceded the experiences.
We have to learn self-love in order to learn love. We have to have self-love in order to experience joy and bliss in relationships. We have to value ourselves in order to effectively value others.
The lower left quadrant of the Zodiac holds our lessons in self-love. The right edge of the chart is where we get to put those lessons into action.
Mars is the ruler of the first house. Mars understands self-expression. He is quick to go to battle for a cause. But Mars retrograde in Libra is going to teach us what it really means to be in partnerships and relationships. Let me rephrase that:
Mars retrograde in Libra is going to teach us what it really means to do in partnerships and relationships.
The idealized piece is the being in love. We’ve all been there (or nearly all of us). You don’t have to be in a relationship to be in love. Many of us have been in love all by ourselves, while the object of our affection unknowingly passes us by.
But being in love is only the beginning. Doing a relationship is the rest of the journey. We cannot be in a long-term relationship until it’s been a long time!
The idea of “commitment” is one that must be tested to be demonstrated. But love?!? Love need not be tested. Love need not be “long-term”. It is possible to express love in the moment…right here and right now. It is possible to fully love oneself and fully love another…without conflict or compromise. Loving is not self-sacrificing. Love does not hurt. If there’s pain, than there’s something else there.
Learning to love others—7th house—butts up against learning to be of service to others—6th house. The cusp between the two—the Descendant—is a poignant place in the chart. The lessons here are conspicuous; the pain…obvious.
Things that happen on the right side of our chart are easy to see because they happen right before our eyes. Often, the true lesson is something on the left, something inside. That’s the reflection of relationship. When we relate, we are experiencing again; we are experiencing a second time. We are experiencing with another person what we have been experiencing with ourselves.
- If we love ourselves (first)…we get to experience loving others (next).
- However, if we are not loving ourselves well…we will experience those same issues a second time in our relationships.
- If we can’t receive love from ourselves, we can’t receive love from others either.
That is the purpose of relationship and relating.
Some day, we might stop calling them relationships. We might let that word, and that way of being, evolve away. We’ll still have partnerships, but needn’t have relationships. We’ll love, but needn’t commit.
Our own language gives us clues. Love has one connotative meaning. No matter how one loves, the idea of loving always feels good. But one who is committed? That word has two very different connotations.
Rather than making a vow, I suggest using intent:
If you intend to love as best you can, then you will always succeed.
Your expression may ebb and flow, but it will be your best in the moment. And “best in the moment” does not mean it can’t get better, stronger, or bigger down the line.
Commitments are hard to keep. They take effort; they take compromise; and they are often self-sacrificing. When we fail to keep a commitment, we feel bad about ourselves. That is what reveals the problem! And that is what then creates more problems.
Intend to do the best you can. Accept whatever you have done as your best. Don’t judge yourself if it seems like it wasn’t enough…simply intend to do your best again.
And know your boundaries. Feed your heart first and always, so it can continue to beat. You must take some of that luscious red blood for yourself. You can feed yourself and feed others simultaneously, but if you feed others and not yourself, you will not be able to do this for very long. You will hurt; you will ail, and you will die…eventually.
For the time being, we are human. We are not meant to be or do it all. We cannot be everything to anyone. And we cannot be an island either. We are individuals born into a collective. We, for now, must rely on others. We cannot feed ourselves without the sun.
Intend to be a vibrant beating heart. Intend to love as big as you want. And remember that even the heart, a muscle that constantly works, still needs rest. It doesn’t stop beating when it rests, but it does slow down.
Life is not a race; it is okay to slow it down.
A thought about Astrology that frustrates me is the idea that good times and struggles are fated…determined by the stars. We all hope we are destined for greatness and fear that we are destined for failure.
Well one day last week, in response to my frustration, I heard this message from spirit:
Astrology does not make things happen. However, if something is in the works, Astrology can certainly help it along.
Take for example two factions that have been intensely opposed within a particular endeavor. Maybe they have been at a stalemate for some time…a deadlock. Neither one is making headway against the other. This situation is like a ketchup bottle balanced upside down. It may not be moving, but it is not very stable either. All it takes is a stiff breeze to blow the whole thing over.
And then life moves on…evolves…and can become something better. I have a feeling that in the fourth week of April, Astrology will be helping a lot of things along. A Grand Cross in the Cardinal signs can certainly resemble a stiff breeze!
Between now and then, we’ll be getting mini-precursors. Three points of the Grand Cross are already in play—namely the Pluto-Uranus Square and then Jupiter forming a T-Square. Each lunar month, the moon will pass over that fourth corner in Libra until Mars squeezes into it. For example, tomorrow is the next time this happens. In fact, it occurs right when the sun enters Pisces.
Another interest synchronicity happens tomorrow. Every 18 to 21 months, the lunar nodes change signs. There are two unique aspects to the nodes:
- The lunar nodes always move backward.
- The lunar nodes always oppose each other.
Given that the nodes only change signs infrequently, it is somewhat unusual that they would change signs at the same time as the sun. Not totally rare, but uncommon.
So, I was thinking about all of this data:
- The sun moving into Pisces;
- The idea of Sensitivity;
- The lunar nodes moving into Libra/Aries;
- And the approaching Grand Cardinal Cross;
and I came up with a story, which I am going to illustrate for you.
Astrology can be likened to wind or water currents that change all of the time. A stiff wind from the north brings cold weather this time of year, and definitely catches our attention. And, when we can see that it is coming, we can prepare by stocking up on food and firewood.
Taking a step back, picture a boat anchored in a bay. The anchor is attached to the bow. If you’ve ever experienced this, you know that the boat will always face the current. Take for example when the waves are coming from the Northeast. The boat will face into the waves because the current will pull at the rest of the boat.
When the current changes, say from the Northwest, the boat’s direction will change as well.
So Astrology is the current, and the Grand Cross is a strong current. We are the boat. But what is the anchor? In my opinion, the anchor is our natal Astrology…what we are born with…and is an indication of our purpose. We are not really an anchored boat, but one that is meant to progress.
So how could a boat like us, adrift on rough seas, hope to stay the course?
Well, this is where the lunar nodes come in. They always oppose. The south node is our history…our karma, if you prefer. The north node is our future…our purpose. To me, the nodes form an orienting force.
If we take a boat and pull at both the bow and the stern in opposite directions, what happens to it?
So, to wrap up, consider this:
- For the next 30 days (starting tomorrow) the sun will move through the sign of Pisces.
- The month of Pisces could conjure up subtle and unseen forces.
- If we’re sensitive, we can feel them.
- We might also feel the April storm that’s coming…or at least notice the pre-waves as they arrive.
- The lunar nodes are shifting signs, orienting us in a slightly different direction.
The forces of nature are what they are, yet we are still manning our boats.
Stay the course my seafaring friends!
The word sensitive has two connotative meanings. Consider the following two sentences:
- My new camera is so sensitive, I can take pictures in the dark without a flash.
- My girlfriend is so sensitive right now, everything I say sets her off.
When someone is sensitive, they have an acute ability to perceive. When they are over-sensitive, they are overly affected by their perceptions.
I assert that these are one in the same. The only way we are able to perceive is by effect. Consider the way our senses work. Our eyes and ears take in vibrations. Receptors are stimulated—and thus affected. Our brains then interpret the effects thus creating a perception of images and sounds.
Keep in mind that we never see or hear what is. Rather we see and hear an approximation based on our own interpretation.
Part of the spiritual journey of ascension or enlightenment is the increasing of one’s sensitivity—that is, one’s ability to sense. However, the other part of the spiritual journey is learning to handle the increase in sensitivity—that is, learning to adjust to the added stimulation.
We all know that too much heat or too much cold causes pain. If we become more sensitive to temperature, wouldn’t that mean that we’d feel pain sooner…with less heat or less cold?
In my opinion, now is a good time of the year to discuss sensitivity. That is because the sun is about to enter the sign of Pisces, which it does at about noon CST on Tuesday 2/18/2014.
In Astrology, there are two charts one can use to do personal readings. The first is what I call the Rising Sign chart. This is the standard natal chart where the position of the Ascendant is whatever degree of whatever sign was rising in the East at the moment the person was born. For example, consider my chart. I was born at 11:02 am on 5/26/1968. 17o 57’ Leo was thus on the Ascendant. The sun, in Gemini at the time, was therefore in the 10th house.
What’s interesting about this form of Astrology, is the house placement colors everything. My 10th house sun means I am an honorary Capricorn (ruler of the 10th house). Everyone therefore has a primary sun sign, and a secondary sun sign (which could be the same sign).
Sun Sign Astrology is a simpler view. The houses are always whole signs starting with the sun sign. In my case, that means my sun sign of Gemini is the first house. That also means that the sun is in my first house.
In Sun Sign Astrology, the sun is ALWAYS in the first house, by definition. By this measure, that means that everyone has a tertiary sun sign of Aries.
By comparison, let’s consider the moon. We don’t anchor either chart off of the moon. In my case, I have a Taurus moon. It sits in the 10th house in my rising sign chart, and the 12th house in my sun sign chart. That means my secondary moon sign is Capricorn, and my tertiary moon sign is Pisces. I only recently began to really understand the complexity of my emotionality by considering all three of these signs.
It gets pretty complex when you consider the triplicity of all planets in a chart.
The other day, I was thinking about this tertiary Aries sun that we all have in common and why that might be. Well, I think I figured it out. The one thing we all have in common is having been born into duality and into a physical body. Astrology is, after all, determined by the moment of birth.
All of us are clearly individuals…and Aries is the sign of individuality. It is the sign of seeking oneself and expressing oneself, something we are all here to do.
Furthermore, since we all have a bit of Aries within us, we all have a bit of Pisces as our 12th house. The 12th house is about the unseen. (That which is beyond the physical? The metaphysical?) In my thinking, the 12th house is all about the subtle vibrations we experience and how they affect us. It is therefore about sensitivity!
On Tuesday, the sun enters the sign (and, in this view, house) of sensitivity.
I have lots more to say, but I will do so bit-by-bit to keep posts shorter. If any of this sounds interesting to you, stay tuned…